life is such

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2010-03-02T11:30:00.001-08:00

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SCID: what are you?

2010-01-20T13:18:00.000-08:00

she wasn't a crier. she was tough. she prided herself on it.

2010-01-20T05:09:00.000-08:00

When did common sense shout that your dreams were going to destroy you and you'd better let go of them before you lost everything that was important to you. Everyday i say. Every single fucking day!
Foolhardy some people are .. never really thought of the consequences until things get to out of control. Always relying on that primal basic instinct that you know will definately get you into trouble but you still continue your ways.
I always hold on to the belief that everything will be okay. But when? Holding is tiring you know. But you've held on for so long you actually are afraid to let go. This is not you, you tell yourself. Not who you want to be. You're not the needy kinda girl, in fact you're too sassy to be held on to.

my heart flutters

2009-12-14T08:57:00.000-08:00

Lately, I've been having feelings. Not love, but probably loving feelings. People around me are happily attached and somewhere deep down inside I think I want that too. Perhaps now, I'm experiencing loneliness and want to have someone to spend time with. It's a nice thought but I am still unsure whether I'm ready to share my life with another person. It's an unexplainable longing for something you have no idea what is. Sigh.

i forgot how to love!!

2009-07-12T03:09:00.000-07:00

it's been too long since i've had a crush =( ... and i've forgotten the fuzzy feeling. the sudden surge of happiness or sneaking a peek at him are a distant memory.
really miss those days of innocent infatuations. silly but so much fun! =)

when will i meet that one?? haha .. or any other will do ..

如果担心为什么还不怕

2009-07-10T04:04:00.000-07:00

i am worried. there's been a lot going on right now. but how come i don't feel the urgency to improve .. i remember the comments my primary school teacher wrote on my report card once: "She is extremely capable and manages to accomplish whatever she puts her mind to. However, she tends to be complacent."
Indeed. Complacency is my downfall. Arrogance and pride are my friends. I think that nothng in my world can ever go wrong. Perhaps this is why i am never truely afraid. But the fear of the unknown not going according to my plans scare me a little.
To this i attest, I shall strive to improve. Of attempt to do so.

没有期望就不会有失望

2009-06-15T02:49:00.000-07:00

从没用过华语表达过自己的我，今日来试看看。

做人最重要的是要有理想。有了理想就是对未来有想法。我们人类生存到底是为了什么？老实说，这个问题我也没有答案。我们只好用自己的本事去做好自己的本分。

在我们的一生中，往往会有些我们无法控制的情况。越是要想去控制，它越是离我们越来越远。但是坐视不理也不对。怎么办？不晓得。

要懂得安分，脚踏实地的做人。

but will you ever be satisfied, not knowing where your potential lies? will your thirst for more ever be quenched, knowing you can reach for more? will you ever stop aiming higher, knowing your capabilities have not been maximized?

bound by situation and circumstances. negative aura.

2009-06-14T06:39:00.000-07:00

too much disappointment. sick of being incapable of deciding for myself. used to not be like that. it's like i have become another person, but for the worse. finding who i was seems to be harder. my vision has been blurred by much unhappiness. for someone whom happiness used to come easily, i am no longer me.

in a desperate attempt to regain inner peace, i will go zen. perhaps the mind is filled with too many thoughts. need time to set things back on track. shall cleanse spritually and mentally. practise detachment as a means of escape. practise indifference as a means of seeing clearly.

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

2009-06-14T00:55:00.000-07:00

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
ENFPs are initiators of change, keenly perceptive of possibilities. They energize and stimulate others through their contagious enthusiasm. They prefer the start-up phase of a project or relationship, and are tireless in the pursuit of new-found interests. ENFPs are able to anticipate the needs of others and to offer them needed help and appreciation. They bring zest, joy, liveliness, and a zany sense of fun to all aspects of their lives. They are at their best in situations that are fluid and changing, and that allow them to express their creativity and use their charisma. They tend to idealize people, and can be disappointed when reality fails to fulfill their expectations. They are easily frustrated if a project requires a great deal of follow-up or attention to detail.

I am guilty as charged.

for that i thank you, for that i'll cry.

2009-06-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

life is all about personal philosophies.

what you feel today, you might not feel tomorrow. no matter how hard you try to grasp something, it somehow evades you. however, when you decide to give up and stop pursuing, it always comes back. but it is no longer the same.

there are no such things as facts, only interpretations.

2009-06-05T01:54:00.000-07:00

the truth is the truth only because we believe it to be true.

the only difference is the way we see it.

it is necessary to have your own viewpoints, but even more essential to learn to see from the viewpoints of others, whether you agree with it or not.

love me when i deserve it least, cos that's when i'll need it most

2009-05-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

there will always be times when you feel lacking or insignificant.

in times of feeling vunerable, one becomes more in need.