bound by situation and circumstances. negative aura.

too much disappointment. sick of being incapable of deciding for myself. used to not be like that. it's like i have become another person, but for the worse. finding who i was seems to be harder. my vision has been blurred by much unhappiness. for someone whom happiness used to come easily, i am no longer me.

in a desperate attempt to regain inner peace, i will go zen. perhaps the mind is filled with too many thoughts. need time to set things back on track. shall cleanse spritually and mentally. practise detachment as a means of escape. practise indifference as a means of seeing clearly.